15 months ago today, early in the morning I saw that there were a couple of new little girls listed, and one of them had short dark hair was in an outfit that was blue and white - she really looked like a little boy! Well, I just had to see what she'd look like in a more feminine color. So I used PhotoShop and changed the blue to lavender and added a little flower to her hair:
There, now she looked like a little girl! Then I sent the photo to Daryl, and told him that I had edited the photo...he replied that I could begin to look seriously into adopting Priscilla. I was surprised, and he said I could ask him later what had convinced him that this was the little girl we should pursue. I found out a few weeks later, when we were almost ready send in the paperwork and money to be committed to her and put her file on hold for us, that Daryl had decided she was the one because I had Photo-Shopped her! God does use mysterious ways indeed!
Soon after we made inquiries into the possibilities of adopting "Priscilla" we were sent some updated photos and some videos, which only confirmed that we wanted to adopt this sweet little girl who so needed a home and proper love and care.
15 months is a long time to wait. I'm sure that there has never been a human mother who has been pregnant for 15 months....and I thought 9 months was along time to wait to meet my newest child each time God has blessed us!
It is especially a long time to wait as we have held her in our arms, fed her meals, held her tight and made her laugh....it has been nearly 6 months since I last held her, last watched her eyes light up in surprise and delight.
When we started this process were saw that the average time of adopting from Bulgaria was around 12 - 14 months, but that it could be quicker. Here we are 4 weeks overdue and over 2 weeks to go.
You'd think that as the day draws near that we will fly away to have her in our arms forever, it would get easier, but it doesn't. You'd think with my busy life the days would go by quickly, but they don't. sure some days go be fast, but every morning and every evening I have this feeling of emptiness. In some ways I think it is getting harder. But God is giving me grace, and every time I start to feel bummed, something comes my way and makes the moments easier to bear.
This week I was able to forward our court decree so that we can add Christy to our medical insurance. Today I made her very first medical appointment! She will be going down to Seattle to be seen by the specialists at the UW Adoption Medical Clinic. They work with the UW specialists and Seattle Children's Hospital to help international orphans get the testing the medical help they need as soon as they come home.
Today I remembered that I had purchased fabric to make her a raggedy blanket and a wrap for carrying her, so now I am looking forward to getting those done this week and next! I also re-worked my packing list so make things more organized and easy to find! Every day I do something to further prepare - like tonight - another meal is going in the freezer for the kids to use when we are away. Step by step, resting on God's perfect timing!
Oh Christy, your mama is coming.